9-18-08

Sitting in Warren in front of the post office. there are two white girls talking about food. One is bragging about all the posh spots she's been to. The other claimed she had only been ordering late night pizza and Chinese food: "I LOVE CHINESE!" The other inquires as to her meal. "I had this fried rice and chicken thing, SO GOOD!" Courtney Wu is next to me, I turn to her and mouth the words, "I LOVE CHINESE!" and lick my lips. My God these women are so vain, seriously, the affluence of the students here is sickening, it's not even their affluence that's so bad, it's the affect its had on their attitudes. Being rich doesn't inherently make you a douche/bitch, but it almost does. These people have never seen the rest of America, or the rest of the World, at least not through the eyes of the rest of us. I'm sure they have had more posh vacations and travelled more and further than I ever will but they've viewed the world through the priviledged, tourist, sheltered lense, hardly counts as a knowledge of the world. I've known people who truly believe that the average household income in the U.S. is 100k or more. Six fucking figures, my father is lucky to make 40,000 to support the both of us. these people don't know what saving even means, they splurge, eat out, and burn every fucking -- don't know what I wrote, I guess I was really angry. Every fire drill on campus can be attributed to some dumb bitch burning popcorn, they've never had to take care of themselves. Even a lot of the minorities here are like that. I heard one black girl go "That's why I like being black here, there aren't a lot of us. I don't even feel black anyways." Jesus. They're fucking OCD about their bodies too. I can't count the number of bitches here with eating disorders, or Spartan workout routines and diets. There are more --can't read it-- than their caloric intake for a month. They're so fucking racist, too, or well, that's harsh. They're just ignorant as fuck. Of course there are the rednecks who've never seen black people, I can forgive that, but then there are the super rich kids out of NoVa who have definitely seen black people, they just treat them as a scarey, exotic species of hooligan not to be interacted with. Some are straight scared, other poke fun at their vernacular and mistake it for ignorace. the biggest, most noticable cue as to the racial ignorance is this: NO ONE WILL ACKNOWLEDGE WHITE PRIVILEGE! Oh, for God's sake, people! Black people don't keep themselve down, nor do brown people. There is a fucking system in place that the people here just refuse to acknowledge. Whatver, fucking pawns, sheep, dicks, what have you. At least I know what's up. END RANT.

Freewrite 9-16-08

I'm chillin in the east campus library, the so-called "ECL." This place owns, the third floor, has study rooms with white board. The common areas have super comfy couches and chairs. There's a Java City on the main floor. There are a ton of PCs and Macs and multiple PC labs. Naturally I'm here with a bunch of asians. By a bunch I mean a ton. It's interesting really that people walk by and take note. A similarly large group of white people goes unnoticed but we are noticed more so. Can't blame 'em, we are called minorities for a reason. I've been in here every weeknight sans Fridays, studying Pychology. It's rather interesting stuff, but it's quite longwinded. I get bored easily because I know quite a bit of it, just not all, mainly the little stuff, details, including the cruicial details. I have a tendency to shun an entire section or zone out if I read something I already know, in the process missing important information. I've no problem at all, however, comprehending principles as a whole. God I'm hopeless. I'm interested in the idea of everything but completely put off by the details of anything. Well, I'm done now anyways. I'm just sitting here with Karen, rea, and Diana while I write. Rez is down on the PCs. Actually she just came back up, so I guess I'm done. Dipset.